Recovery is a painful thing to wake up to. To make a decision to connect to our child within. It breaks the rules. It angers the norm. It enrages parents. It puts a target on our back. And it hurts. It hurts like hell. It hurts to rip down the psychic prison wall and feel the old traumas, the old longings, the old memories. It hurts to grieve, to feel the rage, to confront the perpetrators, to break the denial. It hurts to shed the mask of comfort and walk into the despair. It hurts to reject the fantasy of one day being loved by those who never really loved us and instead drank our psychic blood. It hurts to leave the system behind. It hurts to stand on our own.
Yet this process of waking up, and this alone, is the pathway back to our recovery — to a long, healthy life within ourselves.
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